In the Beginning I
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
good eve
my body just feels funny now says:
^_^ good evening sir
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
how are you?
my body just feels funny now says:
oh shaken but not stirred ^_~
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
Im sorry if I have trouble understanding dear
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
I fear Im very tired
my body just feels funny now says:
my mom just shouted and woke me out of a deep sleep and i'm all shaky
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
ah
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
Im sorry
my body just feels funny now says:
yea
my body just feels funny now says:
how r u?
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
as always dearest
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
thank you for asking
my body just feels funny now says:
*hugs*
my body just feels funny now says:
why r u online if you are so tired?
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
because my computer has been broken and I have been unable to connect
until coming here, to my father's
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
and the only people who accept me seem to dwell online
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
life without accompanyment is cold
my body just feels funny now says:
*gets sad*...*hugs*
my body just feels funny now says:
i didn't know if we were just getting on at different times but i did
miss you
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
and I you dearest
my body just feels funny now says:
^_^;;
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
by the way
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
your guess was not as horrible as you say
my body just feels funny now says:
hm. *considers*
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
stupid windows freezing my razzafraggin browser
my body just feels funny now says:
lol! razza...fraggin!!
my body just feels funny now says:
^_^
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
if you say so dear
my body just feels funny now says:
so, anyhows what do you mean?
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
about what?
my body just feels funny now says:
the not so horrible part
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
you said that your guess was horrible in the email
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
stupid windows killing my opensource browser'
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
maybe if I limit it to two tabs at a time
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
windows+multitask=no solution
my body just feels funny now says:
^_^
my body just feels funny now says:
computers suck .. a lot
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
but your guess is not in the least bit horrible
my body just feels funny now says:
wait!
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
only if you get the wrong ones with the wrong operating system
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
I want my Linux!!
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
wait?
my body just feels funny now says:
i still don't remember. that email is from a long time ago...
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
oh, I haven't been able to check in a while
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
you guessed the one I wished I could love was Wendi
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
IT FROZE AGAIN
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
screw it
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
Im going to have to use IE
my body just feels funny now says:
k
my body just feels funny now says:
that's what i use all the time
my body just feels funny now says:
oh and now i remember the email ^^;;
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
I like Mozilla better
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
maybe I should download Opera again
my body just feels funny now says:
what's Mozilla and Opera?
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
stupid windows
my body just feels funny now says:
*yay* wc back-e
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
trying to kill my opensource
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
sorry
my body just feels funny now says:
np
my body just feels funny now says:
what is Mozilla and Opera?
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
open source browsers
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
one is released by Netscape, I don't know about the other
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
all programmers can fix the bugs or add stuff
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
and they're free
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
but windows is trying to kill them
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
if I don't finish reading my diaries before it freezes again, microsoft
is getting an angry call
my body just feels funny now says:
oh yea!
my body just feels funny now says:
tell 'em off!
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
okay, one diary done
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
but it defeats the purpose only being able to use one tab
updating my diary *blink* says:
yea, that sucks
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i don't understand y u r having such a hard time
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
Im using Win 98, and they helped crap it up more than Windows already is
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
plus Window's has their "ways" of dealing with opensource software
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
thats why I wish I could connect to the internet with my Suse machine
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
even though it is only a 200
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
ah, happiness left to technology
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
reminds me of the Matrix
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^_^
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but what's that you were saying about Linux? what's that..is it
good?
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
its another operating system
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
better than Windows
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
I don't know about Mac
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
I haven't had a go at one like I want to
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
its also opensource
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
you pay for the original box, but thats because it costs like $30 to
print each manual
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
but its open to give to whoever you want for free
updating my diary *blink* says:
?
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can you buy it already in the computer?
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
Linux is a little complicated, more command line
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
you can, but you probably have to ask for it special
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
and probably not from Best Buy
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
itd probably have to be from a local computer shop
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*nods* i would try that, since I'm getting a new comp soon and I
don't want it to act like crap like this one
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but
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since i'm not sure if i'll know how to use it, i better skip it
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
its not a simple thing to do, its the entire operating system
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
if you can find someone near you that might have it, take a look
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
I love it since Justin led me to it
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
even on that nasty little 200
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i know this guy at work has it/knows a lot about it so i'll ask him to
show me
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he works in the tech dept.
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
I love it, you might want to find a book on Unix command line though
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
the GUI can be a little slow, at least it is on mine
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
but Windowmaker is real fast
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
once you get used to it, you hate going back to a common Windows
computer though
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^_^ yea
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that may be a problem since that's what i work on at the job everyday
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
ah
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hm. u sure do know a lot about this stuff
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
not really
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
I just try to look like it
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
I have to know alot about something other than nothing
updating my diary *blink* says:
true true
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
I wonder if Rachel realizes how similar her bands are to Marylin
Manson, considering she hates him so much
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i told her
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she kinda got upset
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so i dropped it
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
ah
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
Im just sitting here looking at her dude and thinking visual kei, glam
metal, I think they're the same
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the only thing we agree on is that Kurt Cobain was a hottie ^_^
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i do too.
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
gotta love grunge, even if Im for slightly different reasons
updating my diary *blink* says:
whenever i think about visual kei i think Marilyn. *shrugs*
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what are ur reasons?
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
because he was a good grunge artist
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
Im not into the whole "hottie" seen there
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
twould be scary if I was
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^_^ well yea, ur a guy
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should would!
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lol!
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sure^
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i was actually surprised Rachel thought that. ..
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
I didn't know she knew any American artists
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
I was afraid to wear my Sytem of a Down shirt over there cuz I thought
I'd have to explain who they were
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lol, yea
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but no..it wasn't that
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it was the fact that she doesn't like how most american guys
look. but for that matter, guys that look like a male
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
*spits water through nose*
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
sorry, I thought I was the only one who believed that
updating my diary *blink* says:
no it's true.
updating my diary *blink* says:
she tells me so
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
ah
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
thats scary
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plus it was in her diary
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
well at least I know I don't look feminine
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
otherwise she wouldn't have been so quick to kick me to the curb
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
in the rain too, I was soaked by the time I'd walked all the way back
home (that was before I moved near them)
updating my diary *blink* says:
what?!
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what happened the reason she kicked u out?
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
nothing
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
she didn't technically kick me out
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o
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
but she got real uncomfortable with me there, left me so to speak, and
I couldn't get in touch with a ride
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
so I had to walk to my grandma's and wait for my mum to get off work
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
I hate being 15
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
but it helped me realize my place in life as a single guy
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
walking in the rain gets you thinking
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
but Im going to shutup now
updating my diary *blink* says:
no no
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i love to hear you talk
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well read ^^
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i love to read your writing *yea that's better*
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
if you say so dear, you are in an odd state of mind compared to others
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
but a little eccentricity is exactly what we need in this conformist
land of ours
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Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
but I fear I am at a lack of anything to say that would please your
eyes, as you have it
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*blush* anything you say is pleasant to me. there is only one
thing that would not...
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well now that i think about it...there are 2 things but one is
inevitable
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
I fear I understand not dear
*blink*...*blink* says:
it would not be pleasant for you to have to go
*blink*...*blink* says:
it would be even worse if you ever told me you didn't want to talk to
me anymore
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
the first one I will try to postpone as long as possible
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
the second will never be heard
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
the second would not go from me to you, but I will always believe may
switch positions in time
*blink*...*blink* says:
never
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
give it time
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
in that time you will be disgusted just seeing someone with the same
amount of syllables in their name as my own
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
its happened before, except most don't give such a thing time, it comes
completely natural to them
*blink*...*blink* says:
i haven't a comment
*blink*...*blink* says:
but u should know...
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
what is that dear?
*blink*...*blink* says:
if u do not know by now, i will not tell
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
you will not supply a smallminded person with knowledge?
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
why that is not fair my dear
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
well, nor is it fair for me to say such, so I will leave it be
*blink*...*blink* says:
*sneaks around behind Chris' chair*
*blink*...*blink* says:
*quickly kisses him and sneaks away*
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
I wish I knew how to react to such
*blink*...*blink* says:
have you ever been kissed?
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
never had a girl willing to test the toad prince theory dearest
*blink*...*blink* says:
*sigh*
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
and I meant more the situational problem
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
as to whether I should be honored that beautiful you would do such, or
if I should be dissapointed that it will never truly happen, as it does
with most
*blink*...*blink* says:
how do you know?
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
from you I know it won't, because that is an impossible thing to ask,
as I now realize
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
Im fairly sure it won't happen with anyone else either
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
because thats simply how life works
*blink*...*blink* says:
who said you have to ask ...
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
dear, I have asked
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
and we saw how that went
*blink*...*blink* says:
i don't remember you asking for a kiss
*blink*...*blink* says:
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
a kiss without attachment is pointless
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
just that
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
a kiss
*blink*...*blink* says:
wow *wonders how she can wink and her eyes keep blinking*
*blink*...*blink* says:
true, but...well i guess it's pointless to say such a thing at such a
time so nm
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
please, say what you wish
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
maybe it will change how I feel
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
since Im seeming such an ass about the situation
*blink*...*blink* says:
*smile* it doesn't matter. i'm sorry for bringing the topic
up
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
no
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
it actually brightened me some
*blink*...*blink* says:
i'm being very rude to you and i shouldn't do that
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
it was my overanalyzing it that brought the problem
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
you are not at fault
*blink*...*blink* says:
thank you for your gracious-ness. i just have a problem with
having good convictions and then not fully expressing them.
esp. when i have fear of something
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
what do you fear?
*blink*...*blink* says:
and i shouldn't fear. that's even worse! but i do care what
ppl i like think of me and my thoughts. if i think they will be
dismissed or not given full response, well, i clam up
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
I won't dismiss your thoughts
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
if it seems I have I greatly apologize
*blink*...*blink* says:
it's stupid i know. but i do that. my one friend thinks I'm
teasing him. I'll start to say something then stop or change
it. ^_^ not on purpose, just fearful of the response.
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
well thats sort of what I thought you were doing just now
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
you remind me how impossible it is for anything to happen between us
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
then you make me long for what I cannot have, though I am sure not on
purpose
*blink*...*blink* says:
i am terribly sorry. this is why i have been rude. i
don't want to do that, but i guess i do it anyway
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
no, please don't think of yourself as rude
*blink*...*blink* says:
i would have not said anything, however, i felt that you were..um,
done..with the situation (read ur diary).
*blink*...*blink* says:
so i felt ok saying something
*blink*...*blink* says:
^^;;; now i just feel awkward
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
it joyed me until I thought so much about ithow do mean done with it
dear?
Last Goodbyes are Always the Short Ones says:
Im sorry I've caused you to feel awkward
*blink*...*blink* says:
thank you for talking with me
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